My Heart Is Weak. It Can’t Take Much More Activity.
When Your Heart Hurts So Much Because You Want Someone So Badly But You Know Deep Down They’ll Probably Never Take You Back. And You Have To Live Your Life Waiting , Hoping , And Hurting . I’ve Been Messed Up For So Long. Tonight I Wanted To Spend Time With Her But She’ll Be With Him. Im Just Always Hurting. Always. Nothing Changes It. I Only Get Bad News Lately Anyway. That’s All I Get Is Bad News. Everything Is Bad For Me. Im Tired Of This Pain And All This Shit. But Their Is No Medicine For This Shit. No Pain Killers . I’ve Been With Standing All Of This For A While Ive Been Ready To Give A Couple Of Times. But If It Does Come Down To It I Won’t Even Think About It. Ill Just Do It. I Have Every Reason In The World To Be Upset , Negative , Sad , Abandoned , Lost , All This Shit. I’ve Never Gone Through This. This Type Of Pain. I Try And Keep It In As Most As I Can. But I Might Give Soon. I Dont Know. Shit No One Knows. No Ones Certain Of Anything.
Thoughts.
I Would Tell Her To Forget Me But Its Already Been Done Shes On To The Next One Saying He’s Better Than The Last One. Ooh It Hurts It Hurts But Im Just Stuck Here With My Love And A Broken Heart Wishing She’d Come Back To Me. Like Foreal Im Dumb . Like Shit Shes The Only One . I Won’t Let My Tears Show No More So I Gotta Make This Song Cry. Cry Cry Little Man The World Will Never Understand The Love Of Your Life Is Gone With Another Man But It Is All Your Fault . If You Wouldn’t Had Made A Promise Youd Be Blowing Your Brains Out With A Glock. The Pain Never Leaves Its Only Been Growing . I Wonder If He’s Better Than Me Does He Make Her More Happy , Does He Do Everything Right , Does He Shows Her That He Cares . He Better Or It’s His Ass. I Ain’t Even Playing I Want Him To Slip So Ill Have A Reason Ta Bomb. Foreal She Is My Love If You Hurt Her You Gone Have Some Problems And Thats Just How The Cookie Crumbles. I Love Her So Much I Try Not To Let It Show . Like I Dont Want Her To Know . Sometimes I Want Her To Hate Me Sometimes I Wanna Hate Her But Honestly I Just Miss Her. I Just Miss Her. I Miss Us. The Talking. The Having Fun And Shit. Im Sad As Fuck. My Life Revolves Around Person Who Really Isn’t Even Worried About Me. But Shes Still All I Think About. Sometimes I Just Really Wish I Woulda Just Jumped Off That Bridge. But Im Getting Off Topic . I Love Her. I Dont Know What To Do. I Think Shes Moved On Forever.
Man Fuck ! Fuck. Im Alone. No One. Nobody. No Friends. No Nothing. Im Stuck. I Never Knew I Could Ever Even Be Like This. I Can’t Shake It. I Can’t Get Rid Of It. I Have To Deal With This My Own Way. No Other Way Around It. I Have To Make My Own Plan. Fuck All That Other Shit. I Have To Just Find Something. Fuck It I Swear Im Done With Feeling This Way . Like Im Just Done. Im Tired Of Feeling This Way So I QUIT ! Just That Easy. No More Pain. Im Cool. Ill Have To Go On Without Her. She’s Already Doing Great. So Im Happy To. I Swear I Am. No One Can Prove Me Wrong !
Well. You’re Gone. I Knew Id Always Lose You I Guess. But Bye. I Love You. Im Happy You Found Better , I Am : ) Have Fun. I Want You Happy ! Im Cool . Dont Worry About The Promises Just Live Your Life . Yea I Wanted It Forever Too But Everything’s Good Now . So Have Fun. I Love You Chianne.
I Have To Fucking Move On. It Hurts So Bad But I Have To. It’s Like I Always Had Faith In Us But She Just Doesnt See It Anymore. I Think We’re Old. She’s Found Something New And She Likes It More. Im Not A Factor. It’s Okay . Im Not Mad I Guess. It’s Like She Always Had To Replace Me With Something . When I Moved Schools She Had To Male A Whole New Life And Fit Me In When She Could. She Can’t Go Without Attention . And I Can’t Give Her The Attention She Wants Or Needs. Im Heart Broken But I Always Knew She Was A Quitter But She Cant Help It. She Needs That. And It’s My Fault I Left. If I Didnt None Of This Would Have Ever Happened. I Think I Was A Good Boyfriend . I Did Whatever I Could To Make Her Happy . But Shes Moved On. I Guess I Have To Too , Right ? Yea Im Pretty Sure Thats The Case . I Wish She’d Be Blunt About It And Not Beat Around The Bush That Kinda Did Give Me False Hope . But She Only Had Good Intentions. I See Her. I See Her Thoughts I Finally Understand Where She Is. And It’s Nothing Like I Thought It Is. Huhhh I Wanted Her To Honestly Be My Forever Girl I Wanted To Wake Up Next To Her Everyday I Wanted To Do Everything With Her . I Want To Spend My Life With Her. But We Dont Get Everything We Want In Life I Understand That . I Gotta Do Something. Im In A Rut And It Hurts. Im Still Sick And I Can Barley Fucking Sleep. Shit I Should Be Asleep Now.. I Hate Rain. I Always Have. I Had Never Lost My Love For Her. But She Was Losing Her Thoughts Of Us When I Wasn’t There. I Still Cry . Lol Yea Im A Fucking Bitch I Know . But Really I Can’t Help It The Pain Is Pretty Deep. Try And See The Person You Love Most InThe World Talk And Be With Another Guy , And Im Not Talking About Just Some Girl You Have A Crush On Im Talking About A Girl That Youd Kill A Nigga You Love Her So Much. It’s Just Another One Of Those Nights. I’ve Been Alone EveryNight Since. So I Guess All Of Those Nights Have Been Just “One Of Those Nights” Our Relationship Is Probably Just A Big Blur For Her Now…. So Many Good Times Like I Just Dont Know. Like As Much As Im Tired Of Being Her Living And Shit I Guess I Can’t Take My Life And Leave People Wondering Why . That’s Too Selfish. All I Want Is To Be Loved. To Be Enough. All I Ever Wanted Was Love. That’s All I Wanted I Swear It Is. Why’s That So Hard To Give. Huh The Truth Sucks. She Won’t Except One Part Of The Truth . But I Won’t Force It On Her Either She Can Put The Blame On Me It’s Okay. Who Cares . My Life Is Fucked Up. My Heart Aches. And The One I Want Seems To Be Doing Great Without Me. And Im Doing Miserable. I Need Help. I Need A Plan. I Need Inspiration. I Need To Know What To Do. I Need A Friend Foreal. I Need Her But Thats A Stupid Thing To Say Let Alone Think. Those Type Of Thoughts Will Only Hurt Me More. And The Bad Part About It Is That Is All I Can Think. I Want Her So Fucking Badly. But Shes Through And The Distance Is Just Too Much For Her. It’s Okay. As Long As Shes Happy Im Happy.
I Miss Her So Much.
